Act 3 the curtain falls.....

DETROIT!!!! HERE WE COME!!!! #43 Forever :o)

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Steelers Fight Song

Well I was just looking back at my journal entries and it seems I have not written since May. Hmmm....The sad part is there's really nothing too new and exciting going on. My life is sad. Let's see...My brother is getting married and I want to kick him (and her) real hard. I swear my brother thinks he is Donald Trump and can spend ridiculous amounts of money on a freakin wedding!!! 90 dollars a plate people!!!!! Breathe Lisa Breathe.

Jeff and I are doing very well. He has been taking wonderful care of me while I go through all this back business and physical therapy. Just another ailment in the long list. Damn hospital job is gonna kill me.
He bought me a playstation for Sweetest Day. Big mistake!!! I dont leave my room for hours. And the really sad part is I play Crash Bandicoot which is almost 10 years old. I'm not up on what the kids are playing these days. This back problem also made me miss The Foo Fighters/Weezer concert. I was actually looking forward to it. Damn my back!!! Damn it straight to hell!!!

Ok my back hurts in this chair so I shall be going. Till we meet again.....

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: DOA~Foo Fighters

It has become a habit ever since I started dating Jeff to watch Saturday Night Live, but the season is over and I'm stuck watching a bunch of "best ofs". Well whatever. I haven't written in my journal in a while but that's because I've been crazy busy. I'm getting used to my new job(yay) and my life is going quite well. Jeff and I are doing fabulously in case anyone cares. It's amazing that someone can make me smile as much as he does. ::Sigh:: God I'm sappy. Anyway, I do believe it's sleepy time. ::snore::

Night night everyone.......

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Little Sister~QOTSA

So it's not even my birthday yet and I've already gotten presents!!! YAY!!! Allyson got me an Elvis cd wallet and two charms for my new italian charm bracelet(a pop tart one and a hostess one). Jeff(::sigh::) got me the new bracelet with three charms(a guitar,a daisy and a heart that says "my girl"). He also got me birthday stitch, easter stitch, and easter nemo. He framed a picture for me and he made me a mixed pearl jam cd, which incidentally doesn't play in my cd player(damn!). I love everything and it's not even my birthday!!!! 4 more days people!!!!! I want flowers though. That would make me real happy!!!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: 311

Ask me how happy I am?!?! Sooooooo happy I tell you!!!! I have a new man. His name is Jeff and he is absolutely wonderful. Thank you Allyson cuz if it wasnt for you I never would have met him. He's just a total sweetheart and he tells me all the time how happy I make him and how beautiful I am. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect guy, now if only i could get him in better jeans.(The wheels in my head are spinning). At least he's not completely opposed to the idea of new jeans. It's a start. :o)I believe I walk around like a fool cuz I always have this damn silly smile on my face. I'm such a dork!!

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Soldier~Destiny's Child

He broke up with me. It must be a new record. I only kept someone's interest for 3 weeks. I feel like shit. Ryan, I wish so much that you were here right now.

Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: Urbane

I swear I'm going to kill. How long has it been since a man has shown interest in me?? LONG TIME!!! Now I semi-have a man and all these men are hitting on me and I'm completely oblivious to all of it. It's driving me nuts. Maybe I should just return to my happy nun-like lifestyle I was living. Yeah that sounds good.....

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Curbside Prophet~Jason Mraz

The last week has been just crazy. I'm still not over the whole fact that I have a man. It's not official yet or anything, but I'm sure I have him hooked. :o) Patric is just a wonderful guy, I don't think I could say that enough and damn all you people who feel the need to give an opinion about everything him and I do. We are happy. I don't care that he's older, works at bar, flirts with girls, yada yada yada!!!! Sorry, just needed to vent.
We had our first "real" date monday night. We went to see "In Good Company". It kind of sucked, but Patric was real sweet the whole night and we had our first kiss. I feel like such a school girl.
And to top it off he bought me something little yesterday. He knows about my obsession with hearts so when he was at Target he bought me different kinds of heart shaped candy. ::Sigh::

Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: Sleeping to Dream~Jason Mraz

I met a man. Yes you read that right. I met a man.

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Spoiled~Joss Stone

Ryan left me the other day. I have a real big sad face right now. He's going to have a fabulous time over there so I probably shouldn't be selfish. Love you Ryan!! My life has been uneventful lately. The holidays were good and it made me happy that my brother came home. I miss him when he's gone, but shhhh don't tell him that.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Passenger Seat~Stephen Speaks

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

So the thought of actually having to type all of the things that have transpired in the last month makes my head hurt, but I'll give it a whirl.
1~I've been quite ill lately. I went to the doctor the other day and they took some blood, so we'll see. I'm just really tired all the time and my legs hurt constantly, but I guess you'll have that. Keep your fingers crossed that it's nothing that will kill me.
2~I hadn't really been out of the house in a week till last night. Last night I spent some time with Ray and that made me quite giddy. We went to the festival(which Ray hated) and stayed for all of 10 minutes cuz it was soooo crowded. Then we went to the park and sat on the swings and just talked and for the first time in a long time I felt comfortable just being with a guy like that. Then we went to the mocha house to wait for bryan to close and we watched fireworks and I was having such a "dreamweaver" moment. Then Ray and I went back to the apt. to get ready to play some games with some other people. While we were cleaning up I looked on the counter of the kitchen and I saw this pill crusher and it was Ray's and it made me smile. I said something to him about it I think he thought i was going to make fun of him, but it just made me have bigger hearts for Ray. Then to top it all off he says and I quote, "I found someone who's just like me." My heart flip flopped. Keep your fingers crossed that something will transpire between me and Ray.
3~Start the training for my new job tomorrow. God help me.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: These Days~Rascal Flatts

John Mayer
Ryan
My mommy and daddy
My Grams
Allyson and Dan
Grandpa
Ashley
Angela
AJ
JohnPaul
Bryan
When people tell me I'm cute
When I hear the words "I love you"
My car
Heath Ledger
Julia Stiles
Cheesy 80s movies
Duckie
Andrew McCarthy
Starbucks
Cute baristas at Starbucks
The OC
Adam Brody
Mandy Moore
Justin Timberlake
NSYNC
New Kids On the Block
Hanson :o)
Golden Girls
Will and Grace
My big chicken candle
Jason Mraz
Tyler Hilton
Rascal Flatts
Bryan and Ray's Apt.
Dawson's Creek
Unsolved Mysteries
Valerie
Jenn
Cute boys
My blanket
My cookie sheets I sleep on
The Park
The Mocha House
Mashed Potatoes
Mac and Cheese
Chocolate
Cheesecake


~I'll update more later~

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Milkshake~Kelis

I can't take it anymore!!! That's been pretty much my mood over the last few days, maybe weeks even. The update on the Mocha House boy~ He's gay! THERE'S A SHOCKER!!!! I knew going into it that he was bisexual but he's not bi...he's freakin gay!!! And the more he tries to deny it the more pissed off I get cuz he lead me on and that makes me want to kick him real hard. We had the little conversation about his sexuality the other night, but somehow on the way from his mouth to Ray's(the roommate)ears the story changed and made Lisa look like a big freakin loser pining after a boy that didn't like her back. Bryan told Ray that I told him I liked him and he told me he was gay so he wouldn't have to tell me he wasn't interested like that!!! I could not be more bitter right now if I tried. Ray and I had a nice little discussion about everything, but I'm not in the mood to go into it right now. Bottom line: Men are scum....except ryan, he's not scum...he's quite fabulous.

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: You Oughta Know~ Alanis Morissette

Ok, so last night was woah odd. I went over Bryan's apartment for the first time and I had a good time, it was just weird. I got a little bitter because he wouldn't let me pick the movie and he was very uncomprimising about the movie we got. We ended up watching Gothika. That's two hours of my life I'll never get back. I was so confused the whole time. And then I didn't know if he was showing interest or not. He was flirting at the movie store, but then when we got back to the apt. he was kinda weird. Oh what am I saying?!? He's a boy for crying out loud!!! His roommate was real nice. Big hearts for Ray :o). Anyway, it was weird, but can't wait to see him again. He makes me smile.....Like Woah.

Current Mood: flirty
Current Music: Lovefool~The Cardigans

Last night was some crazy business. Thanks to Allyson and Angela(love u guys lots) I got up enough nerve to talk to my Mocha House boy in person and I'm really glad I did. He was really nice and he made fun of me for being nervous about talking to him, little does he know how big of a dork I am and that's just typical Lisa behavior. But anyway, we talked for about 10 minutes and I left there happy. I looked really cute last night too so I'm hoping I made a good inpression and he's just adorable. Then last night I waited for the phone call, cuz you know if he didn't call it's cuz he didn't think I was cute and he didn't want to talk to me anymore, but he called. Granted he called at 2:30 in the morning, but I can't fault him for that cuz he had to work till 1 and then he needed to go to Walmart and get a few things. I also was asleep when he called but just knowing he did call makes me smile. So everyone get excited for me and keep your fingers crossed.

Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: Gypsies,Tramps and Thieves~Cher

So I just watched an episode of Dawson's Creek and I was touched. I know I'm going to sound unbelievably sappy, but I cried. Poor Dawson can't catch a break. I wish I had a Dawson. I wish I was the center of someone's world like that. Ok enough about that cuz I know Allyson is going to make fun of me.

Current Mood: melancholy
Current Music: Theme from Dawson's Creek~Paula Cole

"I'd rather leave you than see through the fantasy. I'd rather stay shy and get high on what could be. I don't wanna know what you do when you're gone all I wanna know is what you really want with me."~Toby Lightman

I am completely infatuated with the Starbucks boy. He intrigues me like no other. He's adorable and nice and just soooo cute. And now he thinks Ryan is my man and he's going to go on thinking that cuz Ryan wouldn't announce he is gay or break out into something from Rent. Any other time he would. We could be in Dillards or Express or some other retail establishment and he would sing till his heart is content, but when i need him to he won't. Damn him!!(Love u Ryan). Anyway, moral of the story is this: He will be mine!!!!


And God said: "Let there be Starbucks and Andrew McCarthy!"

Sidenote~There was Starbucks and Andrew McCarthy in biblical times.

Current Mood: determined
Current Music: Fever~Michael Buble version

Sometimes I think there is nothing worse than having a friend who is going through something that u have never been through and thus have no way of helping her through it. It's just been a week from hell for a lot of people. Saturday was my last day of work and it was quite sad. Some people may not understand or think I'm stupid for getting so emotional over the closing of a store, but it's hard. I've done it before when the music store closed and then Saturday I closed Kirklands. I'm going to miss the store and the people so much(except Amanda). In the past year I've grown quite close to everyone that works there(except Amanda). SAD FACE....
On a brighter note Ryan is coming home soon. BREAK OUT THE BANNER!!! :o) At least he better be coming home this time and not doing his spankasswhilesayinglookwhatucant'thave!! And I have also come to the conclusion I'm going to be alone for the rest of my god given life. I'm ok with this.

Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Devils and Angels~Toby Lightman